I Forgive You

Seeing you in dreams,
distorted
ugly
fearful.
Eyes shut,
Sweating
panting,
overwhelming.
You are near.
For six years,
slowly peeled away,
mistrust
hate
guilt.
I am stripped bare.
And yet,
just a thought,
a glimpse in dreams,
you push me to my knees.
But is it you I long to be free of?
or is it the reflection of me?
My past failures, regrets, what-ifs
am I afraid to face?
Perfectionist world
perfectionist dreams,
is it really hard to say,
Hey,
I forgive you,
I forgive me.